I know that my last post had its ups and downs, but on the whole, it was a bit of a downer because it emphasized the negative parts of the trip. I do not know why I did that, especially because the trip was amazing, and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I think a large part of my problem, what keeps me from being genuinely happy nine times out of ten, is that I rarely accentuate the positive. I am going to make a concerted effort to do so, but unfortunately, it is not going to happen in this post. But the next one will be exceedingly uplifting, I promise, and I am starting to really keep the promises I make to myself so that I can learn to trust myself.
I am going to begin with the bad news, since this post’s title predetermined the order. On Tuesday, I went to the doctor because I was having an odd, somewhat painful sensation in my stomach. Apparently, this is where my gall bladder is located and so I was sent to receive an ultrasound of my gall bladder. The technician said the organ looked good, that there were no signs of inflammation or anything like that. She also explained that if my doctor reads the scans and still believes that it is my gall bladder, then I will be sent for a functionality test. If the gall bladder is no longer functioning, then it will have to be removed. This news is not devastating, nor terrible, and it is not even resolved, so I may be complaining for nothing. But, as those of you who regularly read this blog know, that is one of my favorite pastimes.
The other bad news plaguing my mind is the untimely, tragic death of actor Cory Monteith. He played the role of Finn Hudson on the television show, “Glee,” and quickly became one of my fictional boyfriends. His character was absolutely and without a doubt my favorite on the show. When Sammy and I went to the filming of the movie, I embarrassed her royally by screaming out his name so that he would turn and wave. It worked, and then I pretended to faint, and he laughed and smiled, and Sammy was mortified. But it was all worth it because he was incredibly talented, handsome, humble, and genuine. He will sorely be missed by his fans and assuredly his loved ones as well.
Now for some good news; I am scheduled, albeit tentatively, to have an event at the Toms River Branch of the Ocean County Library! Around 7:00PM on February 18, 2014, I will be able to read a selection from my novel and engage in a discussion! As you can tell by my excessive use of exclamation points, I am very excited.
More good news; I was able to spend some quality time with my cousins Brittany and Melinda, who are two of the strongest women I know. They work so hard and do so ceaselessly, are loyal to family, and are somehow able to persevere through situations that would leave me worn and wearied. I love them and thank God that they are part of my family.
March 30th was my last night in Vero Beach, Florida. I must admit that I was sad; I had such a wonderful vacation. I lounged in the sand, soaked up the sun, shopped in expensive boutiques, tried a new style with a new haircut and feel completely at peace with myself and those around me. That vacation had been everything I needed it to be and more. However, I must also admit that I missed New Jersey and as I left, I was excited to see my family.
As far as the so-called itinerary I had in mind for the trip, I did not finish “The Fountainhead” by Ayn Rand, but I only have a few pages left. I wrote, but nothing of real value or quality, and nothing as far as truly beginning a second novel. I talk about writing a lot, but I fear that lately, it has become only talk and nothing more. I have to make the time to read and write, and truly devote myself to my passion. I know that statement seems paradoxical and that one could argue that if I was truly passionate, I would not have to force myself to make time for writing. That being said, I will admit that teaching consumes much more of my time than I had originally anticipated. The goal for next year is to strike a healthier balance between striving for my dreams and being responsible at work. Teaching pays the bills and while I love it and am fulfilled by it, writing is what pumps my blood through my veins. Writing is what I see when I close my eyes, and the first thing I look for when I open them.
While on vacation, I attended the sunrise mass for Easter and went with Kim and Carol to Cracker Barrel for breakfast. It was the perfect ending to a perfect trip.
One of my ceramic brackets for my braces popped off while I was eating sushi … imagine that. I’ll called my orthodontist and set up an appointment. Once I got there, they removed the brackets – surprise! there was two – but did not replace them. If it’s not one thing, it’s another; but I say that with a smile on my face.
Below is an assortment of photos from my vacation. Enjoy! Maybe one will inspire YOU to create a poem or a short story. If one does, please feel free to share it!